They say it takes two weeks to form a habit. I have begun to wonder, if that's so, how long it would take me to live for two weeks as the kind of person I want to be? Every moment. Day in and day out. Not striving for perfection - the kind of person I want to be can make mistakes - but to strive for continuous learning, continuous improvement of myself.
I want to be the kind of person who lives with joy.
I want to be the kind of person who lives with accountability. With transparency.
I want to create art and happiness where I go. In strangers. And in my family and friends. And in my art.
I am an athlete. My body is a temple and I respect and treat it as such. This will be a struggle. As I have lived with a nearly life long eating disorder that presents itself in varying ways. I will take care of my body through working out by focusing on the amazing feeling that follows every work out. Remember that feeling.
I am an artist. My creativity is part of who I am. I will find a way to outlet my creativity, even when my life seems busy or crazy and I am feeling uninspired. Inspiration comes from touching the pen to blank paper. I know that.
I am a lot of things. But this is where I will focus my energies to start. Whether or not it looks like enough, trust me, it is.
